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„You are the most diplomatic angry person.“ [People-Pleasing]

By März 26, 2024Oktober 21st, 2024No Comments

I used to believe “I’m not an angry person”, especially not with others as harmony seemed everything to me. Until I participated curiously in an anger-workshop, being entitled „the most diplomatic angry person“ my trainer has ever seen.

And you know what?

This discernment made me angry! Not angry at her (she was a great, fun trainer) but angry at myself for falling into this trap, this mis-guiding belief.

As I drove back from Berlin years ago and ever since, I’m discovering my anger and I’m trying to use this energy:

~ I learned my anger tends to stay silent. I obviously bottle it up tightly inside me.

It stayed silent for most of my life because due to a family trauma at the age of 6 I assumed „I can’t voice my sadness, anger or anything that felt heavy on top“. Even worse, I believed „I have to act responsibly“, show up for others first, support.

This belief-system and behavior-pattern strongly nourished my people-pleasing and by that need for harmony, unconsciously of course.

~ I also reframed my bigger picture of anger and grief to elevate their energy.

So many of us – maybe especially parents and managers – still believe that anger is something bad, bad, bad. You are not allowed to show it, as otherwise you are not a friendly person, not easy to work with, complicated.

But anger is a positive energy at its very core. It simply shows you and me – your team or family – that something is not okay and needs to change.

This discernment became my anchor-moment for shifting my responses. Hence, after I feel angry or strongly confused today, I take 3 deep breaths and curiously try to detect “What’s at the core of this unpleasant feeling?”.

Most of the time, it’s because I feel treated unfairly. One can imagine that lacking fairness leads me to feel a lack of harmony. Once again, people-pleasing can win over me if I don’t do my mental practice to intercept it.

How angry would you rate your personality on a scale of 1-10 (1=not angry at all, 10=very angry)? What do you believe could be the underlying pattern, hampering your wellbeing and healthy relationships?

If you are among the lower rates (1-4) get especially curious and explore why that is.

I’m here to support you any time (hi@evagruber.org).